hmmm

today i am not providing a rain video, but a fruitiger aero mix:



i made a big move, or the start of a big move, today. i hope it happens. it's pretty much out of my control now, so.

i stressed so hard over it the past couple days that when i finally hit Submit i just... felt empty? and i know that's normal for a lot of people, to feel kind of hollow after accomplishing something you've worked hard on. it's just weird to notice how my brain works. it's ok. the inner knowledge and acceptance is still buffering. i have time to process.

i'm going to practice my glockenspiel solo then get scallion pancakes